January 2012
1 post
Can You Do It Today?
Today I had a sad, angry, frustrating moment. At lunch with my friend of almost 2 years, he picked up my driver’s license as I was paying and mentioned that he didn’t recognize me in the photo. I was 40 pounds lighter. I was younger. I replied that he knew me then, and he mentioned that he had “never known me when I looked like that.” It wasn’t a mean spirited or...
October 2011
1 post
this is a whispery post
I rejoined Jenny Craig 2 weeks ago and I’ve lost 6 pounds so far. Just wanted to put that out there. It works when you work it. But mostly, it just feels good to be in control of my body again.
September 2011
1 post
August 2011
6 posts
Free Chicago Marathon Entries
Another shameless client promo.
What I do for my day job usually includes sponsorships for brands at sporting/fashion/etc. events. One of my latest tasks is to help a client sponsor the Chicago marathon.
This week they are giving away 18 free entries on Twitter! Click here to enter!
Identity Crisis
I know everyone and their brother/sister/friend/dog names their blog “Susie does life” or “Joe-Bob does life” after Ben, and that’s great. But this morning, while browsing the internet, I found a “FITBLR” blog that was started a year and a half after mine with the same name, plus a random symbol. It bothers me. I don’t know why, but I think its...
July 2011
10 posts
NBC New York: Review of Laughing Lotus' Midnight... →
94monkeys:
This is LITERALLY my favorite thing in NYC. I would do it every night if I could.
Weigh In Update
I’m down 7 pounds exactly in 2 weeks. It hasn’t been easy, I haven’t been perfect, but I think I’m remembering what it’s like to give something up now so that I will be able to enjoy my body later. Progress people, progress!
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“I was like, it’s on a trampoline! How hard can it be?? turns out the correct...”
– lemon.: An Alternate Career - or - Urban Rebounding Review!
Click through to read my friend LizLemon’s hilarious review of Urban Rebounding
Me: My celery is making unusually loud crunchy noises in my cube and I'm 99% positive that people around me are laughing at me.
Ash: hahahaha crazy
Ash: Why are you eating that?
Me: Because it's a healthy and delicious snack!
Ash: ewwwwwwwwww.
Me: So they are definitely laughing at me.
Asking for Help (and how I'm going to win $100)
I know I’m in a rut. I know I’ve made some bad decisions. But luckily, in the past couple years, I’ve learned what to do about it. I’ve learned what motivates me, what kicks me in the ass and what I can do to get the weight off. One of those things is to ask my friends and family for help.
Last week, I emailed a friend who has been a great support for me in this journey...
June 2011
7 posts
On Bathing Suits
Last summer I made the leap from one piece to tankinis. I was getting smaller, I wanted more options, and I was so damn tired of my stomach being stark white. This year, as I’ve put back on some of those pounds, I’ve been a little a lot less confident in those tankinis. But now that I know how easy it is to use the bathroom in a 2-piece, I’ll never go back. So…where does...
Gym fail
I made a decision a few years ago to be a morning gym person. I feel better all day, I make better decisions throughout the day and it helps me get to work on time. I also enjoy the friends I make while getting ready each morning. But mostly- I love the fact that working out in the mornings leaves my evenings free to do whatever I want. Sometimes that means a gym date, most times it means dinners...
failure is not an option
This time, I’m not giving up. I refuse to accept a life of obesity. I refuse to accept a lifetime of hating photos, hiding my arms, sucking in my stomach, standing in the back. I’ve gained back half of what I lost. I’ve been angry, disappointed, embarrassed. I was going to stop blogging. Give up this part of my journey.
But then I realized that this is the real world. There are...
May 2011
2 posts
Vacation Prep
BFF Lara: I’m going to have so much fun at Serranos tonight. (our fave college Mexican joint)
Me: I’ll just be at home working out getting hot for our trip to St. Maarten in 3 weeks!
BFF Lara: Crap! I ate a whole lotta fried chicken for lunch!
Me: We are not on the same page!
April 2011
1 post
“I hated every minute of training, but I said, Don’t quit. Suffer now and...”
– Muhammad Ali
March 2011
5 posts
Never Say Never
The earliest memory I have of being “fat” was in the third grade when I found out my mom was pregnant. I slipped into my bathroom, lifted up my shirt, put my hands on my stomach and wondered if I too could be pregnant. I silently prayed that it was true and hoped for the day the magic baby would come out and the big stomach would disappear.
I had a growth spurt the following year...
Pros and Cons of Job Interviewing
Pros
- I confirmed two interviews today, one in NYC and one in Portland, OR at two dream companies!!!!
Cons
- A quick google search for info on Portland showed me that it was listed by BusinessWeek as the country’s number one UNHAPPY city.
- My unemployed bank account cannot handle cross country trips many more times.
“If you haven’t lost the weight you wanted, instead of looking for what you...”
– JC Website
February 2011
16 posts
Facing Fears
I have always thought of myself as fearless. Go to college alone? NBD. Spend a summer in Europe? No sweat. Move to NYC? I got this. Even some of my random “worries”, I have conquered… Cliff-diving at the lake? Done. Parasailing on the Indian Ocean? Done while screaming. Flying in a helicopter through a volcano in Hawaii? Riding a rollercoaster where my legs hang out? Quitting my...
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are...”
– Marianne Williamson (often attributed to Nelson Mandela)
(via emilyposts)
One of my favorites
Things I would like some company to make low carb...
Ice cream
Bagels
Mozzarella sticks
Pizza
Cinnamon rolls
Pancakes
Croissants
*after reading this list I probably shouldn’t be eating any of these regardless.
**if someone invents these items, I will give you my first born child (or at least a mention on this blog)
Happy Birthday to Me!
My gift to myself is a 4.5 weight loss, bringing me to a total of 7 lbs in 2 weeks!
Birthday Countdown
Sunday is my 27th birthday. As I’ve gone through this week, I’ve thought a lot about this weight loss journey; my successes, my failures, my plateaus, my strengths, my weaknesses. This time last year, I was much happier with my physical self but stressed and angry and anxious and steamrolling towards depression. I was 12 pounds lighter. I spent my birthday day shopping with my best...
County Fair
Every Wednesday at my bootcamp is County Fair day. It’s an obstacle course consisting of 5 rows of 6 stations each. Stations range from ab exercises to curls, flys, squats, burpies, push-ups, jump slams, etc. In between each station we have sprints, jump rope, jumping jacks, split jumps, mountain climbers and more.
We go through the course twice and do sprints before, in between and after...
