failure is not an option
This time, I’m not giving up. I refuse to accept a life of obesity. I refuse to accept a lifetime of hating photos, hiding my arms, sucking in my stomach, standing in the back. I’ve gained back half of what I lost. I’ve been angry, disappointed, embarrassed. I was going to stop blogging. Give up this part of my journey.
But then I realized that this is the real world. There are always going to be things that get in my way. Things won’t always be easy and perfect the way I plan them to be. And what matters is not whether I slip, it’s that I keep going.
Two weeks ago, I accepted a new job. Last week, I moved back to New York City. I immediately rejoined my gym and this morning, I weighed in with my nutritionist. With tears in my eyes, she reminded me that success is achievable, I just can’t quit.
So after a difficult season, I get back on the saddle (both figuratively and literally - my butt already hurts from spin class) and keep on plugging away until I reach my goal. Thanks for sticking around, and for all of your encouragement during my break.
I will keep fighting - not only for a great body, but for my self esteem, my strength, my confidence, my flexibility, my passion. I will keep fighting for myself and I will finish what I started.
